"There is blessing in obedience."
Sometimes I can't help but wonder if this is true. Blessings... of course everybody wants to be blessed. That's why I try my best to obey though sometimes things go against my logic.
Today, I've heard the most hurtful words that were ever said to me. What stuck on my head is that I am more of a burden to my family than a blessing. I never meant to be a burden. Of course, I want to bring joy to my family. However, right now, it seems like I am nothing but a burden. The words that were said to me cut deep. It's painful and all I can do is hold back my tears and keep quiet. I deserved those words. I got no objection at all. I refuse to believe that I am a burden though so here I am trying to fill my mind with encouraging thoughts.
I choose to believe that I am a blessing> Probably I am not one right now, but I will move towards becoming one. I don't know whether I should stop dreaming of doing things but yeah maybe I better keep still right now and just take things slow. I have no right to dream big. I got no right to complain. Basically, I got no right to do anything right now. I will just be silent. I will obey. I will submit. I will work towards my goal. I will believe that at the end of this all, God has better things in store for me. I will be still... I will obey.
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