I guess that is what I am doing with Miguel. I like him. I trust him to some extent and I seriously love having him in my life. He was there to encourage me for the past 2 months and that meant so much to me. He has a way of making me feel at ease and believe that things are going to be alright.
However, things are getting pretty serious lately. We have been talking about meeting up, liking each other, and future plans. At first, it was really a thrill. I have never done something like this. But somehow I felt that this was too impossible. I mean, come on! Who would seriously think of flying half way across the earth to meet a stranger?! Too many risks to take!
And yes, I still can't stop myself from over-analyzing circumstances, so when I realized what I am getting myself into, I kind of started pushing him away. I know it sounds stupid but I could imagine how hurt I would be if he doesn't really fly in.
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| My Miguel's Passport |
Guess what, this came to me as a surprise. I received this is my inbox this morning, complete with all his details. (Yes, I erased his Passport number, Identification Number, and all the biometric "scan-able" details to protect him.) Who would have thought that we would go this far? Who would have thought that he would really trust me this much to send me such an important document as this one.
I got really shocked upon receiving this. He has been really honest all this time! I honestly felt relieved to know that Miguel is someone I could trust. I, too, shared some personal details with him and it felt good that we started off whatever this "thing-we-are-in" in complete honesty.
Of course there were points in our conversation when I felt like doubting him. Like how he is sort of related to Magellan, that Portuguese conquistador who landed in Limasawa to start off the colonization of my country and all that. As it turned out, he was serious about it. His middle name's Magalhaes, similar to that of Ferdinand Magellan, whose surname is really Magalhaes in Portuguese. So far, all the details he shared with me are verified to be true. And this means so much to me. How else could I doubt him?
Of course, I am still not putting my walls down. Like completely down. But I do trust him more than I have trusted him before. I guess when he said that he is exclusively mine, he was also telling me the complete truth. You see, I got my hang ups in life. I can't help but think that he is probably just saying those things to make me feel at ease but all these risks and actions that he is taking for me / for us is worth taking into consideration.
I honestly do not know what lies ahead but I am excited for what tomorrow would bring. Knowing Miguel is really one of the circumstances in my life that I will thank God for this 2011. It is just so surreal. It's like that of fairy tales.
The only thing missing is his faith in God. I want to know if he believes in God. If he really believes in God. He already asked me to include him in my prayers. That sort of gave me a hint but then again, I really want to be sure of it. I pray that God would touch him as I am getting to know him more. I asked God for a beautiful love story and as it is turning out, God is writing me a one-of-a-kind-super-out-of-the-box-love-story. I pray that God would minister to Miguel in a very special way. If Miguel is my "God's Perfect Choice", I seriously wouldn't even think twice about spending the rest of my life with him especially if he would be always there to join me in worshiping the God who made our paths cross and brought us together.
I am really REALLY looking forward to what God has in store for me and him tomorrow...
Let's wait and see...
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