Note to Self

I super love this guy and I want this to work but my insecurities get in the way. The fear of losing him, the fear of hurting him, the fear of him finding a new one scare me. I need to push all these insecurities away if I want this to work out. I need to move on. I need to give him a chance to prove that he is honest and that he will stay true to what he says. He cares for me but I can't keep pushing him to his limits too. He is not perfect and given our communication barrier, I need to accept that what I'm in is not easy. I need to understand and accept that as a fact. Oh man. I love him... I really do. I am so into deep....