3G: Unleashed

I got a twisted paradigm which has been untangled tonight. I have been a Christian most of life and I tried my very best to obey the precepts set in the Bible. I may be crazy and disobedient at times but I never did anything to shame my parents. I have always aimed for excellence, pushing myself to the limits, and making sure to honor my parents in almost everything that I do. After all, honoring my parents meant honoring God too.


While I was in Singapore, I have met people who got hold of jobs because they lied. It has become a way of life for people there. They "tinker" with their CVs and for some odd reason or circumstance, they end up getting the job they wanted! I, on the other hand, stood my ground and refused any form of "cheating" just to land in the job. I claimed the promises that God would grant my heart's desires. I prayed and prayed and communed with the Lord but none happened. Up to my last day there, nothing happened.


I felt that life was unfair. How come non-Christians get such opportunities? How come cheaters landed the jobs I wanted? How come I wasn't getting opportunities like them? I grumbled, complained, cried and cried some more. I can't help but keep asking what's up with that.


God is not fair. That's the main point that I keep on missing. He is more than fair! He is absurdly generous to the notoriously undeserving. (Read Matthew 20:1-16) God wants me to learn one thing - stop comparing how much others are blessed as against mine. God is ministering to them in a different way so I can't expect the same thing for me. The Lord is writing different and unique life stories for each one of his beloved. Mine would definitely be different from others. 


I missed the opportunity of being grateful when I started feeling all those feelings. I wasted my time grumbling and asking. I should have been gracious. Another life lesson learned for me tonight - In every thing, I must yield to God. Commit to change. I must always have a heart full of grace, and a heart full of compassion helping others to get ahead. This life is not all about getting my own advantage. It's not always about achievements. It's not about who's better or who'll be the first. Learn to be grateful, gracious, and generous.