What I share with Miguel is fun and it is tough. If there is one thing that is sure about what I share with him is uncertainty. Things are vague between us. To keep whatever this is that we are sharing, I need to move out of my comfort zone and trust. Miguel has always been a great source of love, joy, and encouragement and I will forever be grateful to the Lord for him. That's why though there are countless times when I feel like giving him up, I just can't because he is fighting for what we have.
Earlier this morn, I tried to call it quits and give up on him. It's one of those days when insecurities flood my insides and I can't brush it off and I had to take it out on him. But he was insistent and very persistent. He emphasized that I am his girl and that we are exclusive. It feels good to have such affirmation. I asked the Lord for Miguel. I have been praying for him and it feels good to receive such affirmation. Not that I'm quick to assume that this is it. I am just enjoying this moment when he assured me of my place in his life.
Stumbling blocks, we got a lot! My insecurities alone can break us apart but I'm glad that Miguel opts to be strong for me so we can move on.
I know that he loves me. He is not giving up on me easily. He believes in me. He trusts me. He is not fooling around. He believes in our exclusivity. I have never been in such an assuring situation and it is good to be in this special relationship.
I do not know how our worlds exactly came together and I definitely do not know what the future will bring. But it's nice to know that I could always look back to this year and remember that though life has been a challenge, God blessed me with Miguel who makes me feel loved, challenges me to trust, encourages me to be brave and strong, and to top it all, he wants to be exclusively mine.
What else could I ask for?
My heart is overflowing with so much love already.
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