I spent the whole day in the room. Got coughs to begin with and yes, been having cramps. So you could imagine that my day went a bit slow. Again, doubt filled my mind. Anxious thoughts came in. Will I ever survive this ordeal? This is something which I bestowed upon myself. Technically, I could have not gone through this but I chose to be here anyway. Yeah, why do I have to complicate things?
But how else could I ever find out what is in store ahead of me if I will never ever try to step out of my comfort zone? I am scared and yes, I admit it. As I walked the streets of Singapore, I can't help but wish that I do hope somebody was really with me. I hoped either for my family to be here or at least somebody whom I could call mine. Then again, after which, I shake off all these ill feelings and move on.
I keep reminding myself that my hope rests on Christ alone and that I could overcome all my fears. I don't want to come home defeated and still hoping that I could make my dreams happen. I don't want to keep dreaming of beautiful things and not do anything to achieve these dreams. I want to support my family and give them the best things in life. They deserve it. I know I won't be able to do all those if I am back in Manila. Is it wrong for me to dream big?
Mindset. Paradigm shift. That's what I did. And I intend to hold on to it until I succeed. I just really pray that this is part of God's will in my life.
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