Loved, Loved, Loved

I never knew that there would come a time when all I could do is run to my friends and depend on them. I guess I have always been used to having my friends depend on me all the time. I never also thought that they would also care and love me so much. 


You see, I find what I'm going through right now to be so tough. Feeling of the unknown kills me. Whenever I move, I want to make sure that everything goes according to plan and if there would be any deviations, it would be too little and very easy to handle. However, what I'm going through right now is totally not within my control. All I have is my faith in God, determination to overcome and my friends.


There are times when I feel like giving up. Sometimes I question myself why I decided to move out of my comfort zone but I want to help out, that is what I always tell myself. Anyway, in moments when I feel so down low, I praise God for sending people to check up on me.

Henry just called. He pulled a little prank on me and that made me crack a bit. It was a good joke. He made me smile. He checked up on me, trying to find out if all is well with me. He even cared to know if I'm comfortable enough at my present state. It was sweet of him to offer right away to stay with him and his sister, Irene. They would be more than happy to help me out and shelter me. I seriously never thought that he would go out of his way just to help me and encourage me. I find it really sweet and heartwarming.


It's funny how I used to take for granted the hundreds of friends that I have. I thought all it ever gave to me was popularity. Little did I know that I have seriously established good friendships among these people that cause them to really extend a helping hand especially now that I am not sure of my future.


Thank you, Lord, for giving them to me. Thank you for making them call me at the right place and time. Thank you because they fill the void that I am feeling and they make me feel stronger. Even just for the encouragement to move on and for every call that they do to check on me, I praise You, Lord, for these little things because it fills my heart with so much hope and that is more than enough for me to move on and face what is in store for me once more.


I am grateful for having You, Lord, in my life. I am grateful for the love that I am getting. I am grateful for this circumstance where I am learning more about what life is all about.


Overwhelmed, Grateful, Loved...
What else could I ever long for?