REALITY

Another day to battle. Robert is gone. It's just me and Juvy from now. Being the older one, I need to take in the responsibility of caring for her. I feel like I am at a loss since I do not know where to start. I am unemployed and I am scared that my chances of finding an employment is quite slim. 


My heart is overwhelmed and the Lord knows it. I had to let go all of the comforts of my life. I left because I feel I am ready to assume greater responsibilities. How? When? Where? Say what? Yeah, I know. The answer to all of it is I do not know. All I know is that I need to start supporting my loved ones instead of them supporting me.


Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not in my own understanding. In all my ways acknowledge Him and He will direct my paths straight. That is what I will start doing. Everyday seems like a new start for me. I take things one at a time. You see living my comfortable life is so tough for me. Now I have to cook, clean, and do the rest. On top of that, find work. In this world where I am in, I find things cruel. If I analyze things closely, it is like as if there is no glimpse of hope for me. Nothing is given to me to be hopeful for. It is sad. Seriously but I sure am glad that I am given a choice to think otherwise. 


I choose not to be defeated by my fears. I will get up and get going again. 


I pray things would work out fine. God's favor is upon me. I know and I believe that things would be better soon.