Sad Reality

It is tough to be apart. He is at the other side of the world while I am at the opposite part. Time difference sets us apart. By the time he tucks himself to sleep, I am wide awake and otherwise.


Anyway, today, things finally took a toll on me. I felt like I kept on waiting for Miguel and for some reason, it has been so hard to just keep on waiting. When I am online lately, he doesn't even bother to say hi. All he says is "I'm busy."
Today, I told him that I am giving him space and that I am letting go. I think it is the right thing to do. He said that he thinks that I am always offline. I told him that I always wait for him and that ths time, I am serious about giving his space. Let him find me if he needs me. I gave him the cold shoulder. I honestly feel sad that I am far and disconnected from him but I feel like he needs to know and care about how I feel too. 

You know, Miguel is a great guy. No doubt about it. In fact, he was so sensitive about how I felt. He called me and he even wondered why I still wasn't smiling despite the fact that I told him I am going to be okay. 


I knew he was tired so when he said he had to sleep, I decided to let him do so. I got shocked when he said sorry. It meant so much to me that he apologized. It brought forth closure. It is my weakness when guys apologize. 


I do not know how far this relationship would go but I am happy knowing Miguel day by day. He makes me happy. I do hope things would work out for him and me. I would love to love him for real.