Tea & Sympathy

I woke up realizing that I am not ready to apply. My insecurities and fears are overwhelming me. Today, I succumbed to it and opted to stay home. Wrong decision you may say but I say otherwise. 


It's tough to move on when one is faced with reality that's pulling one down. So I started my day with a cup of tea. I am a big fan of Twinings. I love how it makes the flavors come out. It doesn't taste like your usual flavored green tea. Today, I tried Darjeeling and I loved it. It tasted like prunes. If you are into fruity flavors, try this out.

Commercial break... I am watching the re-runs of The Voice on AXN and I can't help but pause for a while and watch Adam Levine enjoy listening to Blake Shelton and his team's rendition of "This Love". Yes, I got this weird crush on Adam Levine. His smile makes me melt and often helps turn my frown upside down. Who wouldn't? His smile seriously makes me weak. It is crazy but yeah, he seriously has a weird effect on me. It's good. And don't worry I'm not going super crazy. I still know the different between reality and fantasy. It is just nice to have a good reason to smile when you're down.

One of my first conversations
with Miguel

Going back to reality, after weeks of not being able to speak properly with Miguel, we were able to talk today. He updated me of his plans. He will travel probably next week to Brazil or Mexico again. He has set some job interviews back there which is good. We started to talk about Brazil and he actually got shocked that I am visa exempted to get there. But of course, reality tells both us that it remains a fact that it's difficult for me to get around. After that, Miguel shifted our conversation to future plans. I like that in my guy -- a guy who has plans for the future. He plans to fly out after a year or less so he could be nearer in terms of proximity to me. 


I could not deny the connection we got. It is really something else but our language creates this invisible barrier which makes it hard for us to dig in deeper about our future plans. I am excited. This talk with him makes things better. I am excited for what is yet to come. It feels good that he continues to think of me and that I am part of his plans after all. I just hope I'd be strong enough to hold on to whatever this is that we got.


For now, I'll just drink my tea, do what I need to do, and maybe some of you could offer me some sympathy. Haha. Oh well, life must go on.  Toodles!