It has been over a month since I have been back. Picking up where I left off has not been easy. When I got back home, I continued to apply jobs there, hoping to land to something. Until now, I got no response. I started applying for jobs back here and sadly, I haven't received much positive replies from my target companies.
It is sad. There were mornings when I feel so down. Of course, there's this easy way out of this dilemma of mine. I could always come back to my past job and settle for it. Yes, it's like settling for mediocrity. Honestly speaking, this is not an issue of my pride, I just need to find something which would be out of my comfort zone and would allow me to learn more.
Life is hard. I am experiencing it now. Living it hurts me every now and then. It's tough. BUT I refuse to give up on my dreams. I refuse to give up on life. I will just cry buckets of tears or until my tear ducts dry out. I am not giving up. I will succeed.
I know I have been questioning God about things but it doesn't mean that I have lost my faith in Him. It just makes it clearer that His will is not same as mine. I maybe down right now but I know that in time, I will rise above. I will be successful too. After all,
even in the dictionary.
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