Belle de Jour

People change. You may support someone with all your heart, time, and effort because you love them. Sadly, now that you're in need, you get the littlest support ever. Not that you're expecting anything in return, it's just sad that since it seems like I got nothing to hold on to, that is exactly the same time that I get no concrete support.

I tried to spread my wings, I tried to follow my dreams and for a while I thought I got some support from the people dear to me. Only to realize that when it did not push through, they started counting all the "help" they extended to me one by one -- almost itemized.

It's sad that I'm not one of those "fortunate" people who were born with silver spoons on their mouths. It's sad that I'm no royalty. It's sad that I can just easily do the things that I dream of doings. It's sad that aside from I don't have the financial resources, I don't have the luxury of time to follow all my dreams.

Don't worry, this is no cause for alarm. I'm not in a state of rebellion. I just felt like telling someone about how I feel and right now, it doesn't matter if you'll reply back or not.

Life is unfair. It's one realization that I clearly learned this year. And I will live with this truth until I die.

Life goes on...



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