What's Next?

Parents just got back from Sg. They got me what I requested for. I am all set for my next trip of a lifetime.

Anyway, work is about to end in a week. And then I have to think things over. Is this it for me?

Yeah, I think I'm getting cold feet! Haha pathetic? Yeah maybe I am. I need to keep reminding myself of what must be done and what I have to do. It's not just me involved. My brother's dreams lie on this one too. I gotta do this! I have to! I will. And I'm going to do so. I can do this!

xoxo


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Back out?

NOT!
yeah, my plans maybe dismissed but like what the wisdom principle said:

The wise man sets Godly principles and does not allow anything to stop him from attaining it.

I can do this!!!!!!!!
God's favor is with me.
I'm gonna fight for this!
Xoxo


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Good News / Bad News

I do not know what to feel. You see, I was eyeing this job since last Saturday and I honestly felt positive about it since then. I hoped and really prayed for it. Then, just a few minutes ago, I received an email of rejection.

Oh, heartbreak! :(

I wonder what the Lord has in store for me.... I wish to know soon. I wish to be given a chance to experience what it's like to achieve the dreams that I have. •sigh•

Anyway, as for the good news. Guess what -- my parents are off to Singapore on Friday till Saturday. Aren't they lucky?
I'm happy for them.

I hope God sends some good news for me soon...


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Achieving my goals

And so I'm chubby now...
The goal is to lose weight
And yeah I want to
Therefore I'll decide on doing it.
This is it!
Tomorrow is gonna be the start of something new! No rice diet plus exercise.
Bring it on!!


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Thoughts on Suicide

Why would somebody do that?!
I know that life is horrible every now and then. You get cut and hurt. You fall in love then your loved one will leave you. You care and you'll be betrayed. But no matter how painful these things are, isn't it still better to live and enjoy life?

I mean suicide won't even solve anything. Yes it'll put a halt to the issue but it'll never be completely settled! What's the point of that? Nonsense!

Doesn't the suicidal person even think of the people who love him so much! Imagine the pain that those people would go through when the suicidal one dies! Isn't it too selfish of that person to take his own life just so he could escape being hurt? How would he ever find out how far he could go if he has already decided to put an end to his life??

I seriously have one thing in mind now -- Pathetic!


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Reasons

There are so many things which I would like to do. I am not rich though and whatever I enjoy now are things which I work hard for. I dream of working elsewhere to give my family the kind of life that they deserve. My parents are not pressuring me into doing this. This is my own desire. I would really want to bless them with more than what they have blessed me with.

You see, I lived a comfortable life. We had a lot of lows but we never had none. My parents did so well in prioritizing our needs. I never stopped schooling, neither did my siblings. I never had everything that I wanted but my parents made sure that I had all the things that I needed.

Now, there are opportunities coming my way. Though still vague, I am claiming it and I intend to pursue it. I know that when I take this leap, unexpected things would come my way... But hey! Didn't God assure me that He'll always be there for me? I'm becoming convinced that this might be God's way of pulling me out of where I am now and promoting me to where I should be. I take on the challenge.

I do hope this pushes through. I'd like to bless my parents, siblings, and closest relatives. I'd like to be a channel of blessing to others.

I have nothing else in mind. I've been checking my motives and I believe that I have no ill motives whatsoever. I pray that my plans are according to God's plan. This is really it. I'm feeling giddy and I'm so looking forward to taking a leap and seeing what God will do in my life.

xoxo


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Hope

I didn't understand why I woke up early today, but it was definitely unexpected when came across that job opening at Hilton Sg.

Nothing is definite yet but I'm grateful for that tinge of hope that was placed in my heart. You see, I have been feeling down and I've been setting goals to move on. And God has been sending me signs which are becoming clearer to me.

Hilton emailed back. No commitments but it gave hope to me. The AVP sent me a definite waiting period which was very good. To be noticed is a good thing and if this works out for me, it would really be a big help for me and my family.

Tonight, I gained hope that there's a chance for me to make it after all. There's a chance for me to help my parents and give them the enjoyment they deserve. Given the chance to do this, I will definitely give it my best shot and I'll do well in this.

Oh, Lord! Thank you for this blessing. Talk about simple joys. It's more than enough for me. <3

Xoxo


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Conference

I love my work but I get too tired from it every now and then. I got conferenced yesterday and some of it were my fault, I admit. I guess I'm no longer too happy about how things are.

I have always loved where I am - the kids and the people. Time changes and even rules change and I am turned off with how things are done. It's sad actually.

I'm ready to leave though my heart aches for them. I need to move on and give myself a chance to explore new opportunities in life. I need to do this. It's sad that it has to be this way but I need to check this opportunity out. I just really really have to do this and see for myself as to how far I could go.


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Childishness

Penn Badgley is driving me crazy. If only he was for real! I'd love to have a boyfriend like him. His fictional character, Dan Humphrey, is just so smart and I can't help but like him a LOT! :))
oh golly! This is so crazy! Hahaha




He looks so easy to be with. Wouldn't it be nice to hang out with someone as witty as he is. Yeah, I could melt now.

Sadly, I'm no way near Blake Lively. Come to think of it, I could always re-invent myself, right?

Hmmmm... Lemme ponder more about it. I'll update you if I'm gonna push thru with it ;)

XOXO ^_^

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Just for Today

Just for today....
I will choose and display the right attitudes.

Just for today....
I will determine and act on important priorities.

Just for today....
I will know and follow healthy guidelines.

Just for today....
I will communicate with and care for my family.

Just for today....
I will practice and develop good thinking.

Just for today....
I will make and keep proper commitments.

Just for today....
I will earn and properly manage finances.

Just for today....
I will deepen and live out my faith.

Just for today....
I will initiate and invest in solid relationships.

Just for today....
I will plan for and model generosity.

Just for today....
I will embrace and practice good values.

Just for today....
I will seek and experience improvements.

Just for today....
I will act on these decisions and practice these disciplines, and

Then, one day,
I will see the compounding results of a day lived well.

Remember:

GOOD DECISIONS - DAILY DISCIPLINE = A plan without a payoff

DAILY DISCIPLINE - GOOD DECISIONS = Regimentation without reward

GOOD DECISIONS + DAILY DISCIPLINE = a masterpiece of potential



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I love Daniel Randolph Humphrey so much! Oh, PLEASE be real. :)


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Death

Man, many are scared of you. Young and old are alike. If they could escape you, they would... Only to realize that they can't. People try their best to be younger. Why? Because they don't want to die. People try to prolong life because death is the end to life.

Today, there was this rumor about radiation leak coming from Japan. Oh boy! Did it cause too much panic! Back at school, we were advised to swab Betadine on our children's throats. We had to send them home early as well. When I think of why? It's not exactly just part of precautionary measures... It was because people were scared to die! My kids cried and got anxious. Out of their mouths came their worries. And yes, it was mainly about death.

However, I liked how one kid tried to calm his classmates. He pointed out that there's no reason to worry because the moment we die is the exact moment we'd see Jesus Christ!

Death is not scary at all! Especially when we know where we are headed to. I believe this won't be a problem to us Christians because we know we've got Christ.

Oh, boy! There's a lot of information dissemination to be done. Gotta inform everybody that full assurance comes only from our Lord Jesus Christ an indeed, there's nothing to fear if we are on His side.

With that, it's time to share Christ to others. :)

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Saturday

What do I have in mind? 
REST!
But though I stayed longer in bed, my exhaustion never seem to wane. My body remains tired and I could feel some sort of body malaise creeping in. I hate this feeling. I know I have gotten enough sleep last night but still, it seems like it's not enough to give my body the kind of rest it deserves.
I wish this feeling would go away. It's so tiring. 
Anyway, it's a Saturday.
Unlike any lazy Saturdays, this one is different since I am bound to go out this afternoon to rehearse for tomorrow's service. I have to say, I am excited to do so. It has not been too frequent lately that I have been worship leading. I love being able to usher the congregation to worship. I love how I need to study things to share to them. Now, I am just waiting for a song to download so I could study the song.
Yes, I am having a slow start. Nonetheless, I am looking forward to an exciting day and I know that today is gonna be good. Today, God will be lifted up high. :)

"Love is a leap of faith and sometimes you just have to jump." -Labor Pains <3

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Quakes and Tsunami

Today, an 8.8 earthquake hit Japan which triggered a tsunami to happen sweeping off the coasts of Japan and destroying so many farmlands and properties.

Having no other borders to break the waves, this tsunami will bring forth smaller tsunami waves to my country.

It's scary. I have to admit that thinking about it is scary. The destruction it might bring worries me. Too many people will be affected, including the Christians in those areas. Once more, many people will lose so much of their "treasures".

But God is good. God remains faithful that even in moments of distress, He brings forth some source of comfort. People all over the world are informed about what's going on and what is about to happen.

Anyway, in the midst of all these event, my friend sent me this tweet.


I guess my mind was too focused on monitoring the quake and tsunami that I totally didn't think of receiving this. I honestly felt good upon receiving this tweet from Ezra, my Christian friend from Brunei. His assurance that I, including my country, would be in his prayers became a reminder for me that God holds me, even the Filipino people, at the palm of His hand. God remains in control in every thing that will transpire in my life.

Am I distressed? Yes. I worry about these things. However, it's nice to know that God is my refuge. He is my source of strength and knowing that I am at the palm of His hands, I am secure with Him and my heart his filled with peace that surpasses all understanding.

Thank you, Lord, for Ezra. Bless his heart. Thank you, Lord, for Your ways are not mine. Thank you, Lord, because in You, I find my peace and assurance.

Be glorified even in moments like this.



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The Ideal Woman

She is a woman of God; an embodiment of all that is feminine and beautiful.

She is conscious of her health and well-being as she disciplines herself to be a good steward of the life and body she has been given.

She is very teachable and never stops learning. She reads—a lot, and enjoys having deep conversations over coffee or tea. Her letters are still handwritten.

She values each and every moment; watching the sunrise and the sunset; going for long walks; making the most of the rain.

She can appreciate any type of music for what it does for the soul. She sings in shower, in the car, and anywhere else not caring who is listening.

She dances the night away and sees the art in all of life. She would always go to a play or musical before going to the movies. She would rather play a board/card game than go to the mall.

She is bold and adventurous; a traveler who is experienced and cultured to the world.

She is down to earth; a hard-working hippie who’s is completely on fire; real, genuine, authentic; not fickle, dramatic, or materialistic.

She loves kids and teaches young boys and girls what true womanhood is all about; she will wake up early on a Saturday morning to be with these kids, set an example, and pour into their lives.

She worships with freedom, expression, and passion; completely abandoned to herself and those around her. She is fully in the presence of the King.

She is a visionary. Her dreams are high and lofty. Others are inspired and challenged by her ambitions and aspirations.

She is a nonconformist of this realm who holds strong to her convictions. Her methods may be unorthodox and unconventional, but it is best that way.

She is driven and burdened to do good, conquer kingdoms, administer justice, obtain promises; to be a light shining in the darkness and a voice of change—a peacemaker. She will change the world, turning it upside down of which it is not worthy of her. She is overflowing with the fruit of the Spirit and her passion is infectious.

She has a gentle spirit and a kind heart. Her beautiful soul illuminates brightly. All can see her radiance. Her fragrance is a sweet, pleasing aroma. Her voice is a soothing lullaby.

She is well-known and well-liked because her spirit is just so attractive.

She is an encourager and supporter; always cautious with her words and speaking in wisdom, patience, humility, and forgiveness. She is honest with herself and others. She is not afraid of communication.

She holds to faith, hope, and love. She is joyful; an optimist who finds her security in Christ, trusting in the good and the bad; the easy and the tough; for richer of poorer; for better or worse; in health and sickness. She is a whole person—content, healed, redeemed, and complete in Christ.

She is not one to freak out or force control. She is not anxious or worrisome, but seeks the Lord in all things. She is brave. She takes comfort in her Savior and rests easy.

She is absolutely and irrevocably in love with Yahweh. Her prayers are intimate and the Scripture indwells her heart.

She allows herself to be vulnerable when necessary for the sake of others. She is available.

I will pursue her, rescue her, woo her, and romance her. I will hold her, cherish her, protect her, admire her, esteem her, and offer her all my strength and security. I will be her mighty warrior poet and defend her honor. I will fight for, live for, and die for her in any way called for. I will be her hero. I will be her man.

She will be my best friend, my partner in crime, my teammate, my roommate, my playmate, and my beloved darling. We would have a righteous jealousy for one another, learning from each other, and sharing all of life and ministry together. We are to be bonded, united, joined, intertwined, and interwoven together; to become one flesh—inseparable. We are no longer our own, but belong to the other as one.

But most of all, as Eve was for Adam, she will be my helpmeet—my life-saver. We will add value to each other’s lives that would not be there before. As Christ is the center, the totality, the completeness, the all surrounding, and the all encompassing, we are first in each other’s lives. We make, show, and lead one another to be a better man and woman—husband and wife. We draw each other closer to God. I cannot imagine my life without her.



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Writing

I love ranting. I love expressing my feelings and writing them into words. However, things have been so overwhelming lately that I find myself heading to bed to sleep rather than writing everything away. It is sad that my present circumstance has prevented me from doing something which I really enjoy a lot.

I was browsing my Facebook a while ago and read my cousin's blog. Boy, she had a lot to share. Her eloquence and suave way of presenting things encouraged me to become "vocal" once more in expressing my ideas. It's about time to do so, I guess.

Point being said, expect more notes from me. Let's see how far I could go in taking account of the things that are happening in my life.

Brace yourselves, people!

<3

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Evicted

The negative thing about loving someone is that there's no assurance of complete reciprocation of the feelings. You will never be sure if the feeling of your partner is mutual with yours. It's sad but it's true.

Anyway, so I took a chance in loving someone. Only to find out he was fooling around. The world would be a beautiful place to live in if men would be honest about things. I do not regret loving the person completely. I do not regret hoping that the relationship would turn out to be as real as it could be.

I gave him a chance. I thought of him, prayed for him, loved every thing about him. Sadly, I have to go my own way. I deserve someone better than him.

I am not bitter but I am hurt. I wish him well.

As for me, I'm gonna stand up and move on. Life goes on....


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